Thursday, 10 December 2009

Permanently Invisible

Wednesday, 9 December 2009

Thursday, 12 November 2009

Breakfast Sessions

So now I have thought of a great title. Breakfast Sessions, since I do this every morning when I wake up. Either before or after breakfast. This was still taken inside my lil bro's room and I admit I have a lot of mistakes here. Still a big room for improvement but this vlog what drives me to be better. haha.

I know my voice and guitar is waaaaaaaaay off key but here's my breakfast yesterday. haha.
Pardon my abysmal guitar skills.. :D

Lucky as popularized by Jason Mraz and Colbie Caliat

-tabbed by Totto Strand

Intro: C

C Am
Now do ya hear me talking to you
Dm7 G Em
Across the water, across the deep blue ocean
Am Dm7
Under the open sky, oh my
Baby I'm trying

C Am
Boy I hear you in my dreams
Dm7 G
I feel your whisper across the sea
Em Am
I keep you with me in my heart
Dm7 G
You make it easier when life gets hard

Am Dm7 G
Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
C C/B Am
Lucky to have been where I have been
Dm7 G
Lucky to be coming home again

Am Em G
Ooooh ooh-oooooh ooh-ooooooh....

Dm7 Am
They don't know how long it takes
G Dm7
Waiting for a love like this
Am G Dm7
Every time we say goodbye, I wish we had one more kiss
Am G
I'll wait for you, I promise you, I will


Am Dm7 G
Lucky we're in love in every way
C Am
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Dm7 G
Lucky to be coming home some day

C Am
And so I'm sailing, through the sea
Dm7 G
To an island, where we'll meet
Em Am
You'll hear the music, fill the air
Dm7 G
I put a flower in you hair

C Am
And though the breezes through the trees
Dm7 G
Move so pretty, you're all I see
Em Am
Let the world keep spinning round
Dm7 G
You hold me right here, right now

C        Am        Em       G
Ooooh ooh-oooooh ooh-ooooooh....

Tuesday, 10 November 2009

Jesus Never Fails

On my way home from the office, a jeepney cut the jeepney I was riding, and it's rear slogan reads "Jesus Never Fails" It actually made me smile and I said to myself, I'll blog about this statement. So here I am, blogging about it without an actual train of thought. Just blogging what's on my mind.

The reason why it made me smile was because It's a nice thought, Jesus never fails. It is us who fail, we fail in a lot of things, sometimes blaming luck or fate when things didn't go the way we planned. Thinking about it more, there were times when Jesus could've failed. When he was praying, asking "My God, my God why have you foresaken me" he could've just given up but he rose to his position as God's Son and saved us all.

Maybe we can fail less if we change the way we think about things. If we dont blame anyone or anything about faults and disorders in our lives. If we start acting up instead of backing down. If we start being a person of Integrity. If we start thinking positively, then we may minimize failures in our lives

after all failure is just a state of mind

An attempt for Bathroom Sessions

Okay, I haven't thought of a nice title for my guitar sessions and this first 1 isn't at the bathroom, it's in my lil bro's room. This is just an attempt so it's not a full song or anything.

Overjoyed as popularized by Stevie Wonder

C B7 Bb7M B7

C B7 Bb7M A

D Bm Em - A
Overtime, I've been building my castle of love
D Bm E - F#
Just for two, though you never knew you were the reason
B F#
I've gone much too far for you now to say
Bm E A
That I've got to throw my castle away

D Bm Em - A
Over dreams, I have picked out, perfect come true
D Bm E - F#
Though you never, knew it was of you I've been dreamin'
B F#
The sandman has come from too far away
Bm E A
For you to say come back some other day

Refrain I:
And though you don't believe that they do
D F#
They do come true
Em A C B
For did my dreams, come true when I looked at you
And maybe too, if you would believe
E G Em7 Bb Intro chrds
You might be overjoyed, over loved, over me

D Bm Em - A
Over hearts, I have painfully turned every stone
D Bm E - F#
Just to find, I had found what I've searched to discover
B F#
I've come too far for me now to find
Bm E A
The love that sought can never be mine

(Repeat Refrain I except last word)
B7sus - B7
Over me

Refrain II:
And though the odds said improbable
What do they know
F#m B
For in romance
D C#
All true love needs a chance
And maybe with a chance you will find
F# A
You like I
F#m7 Bsus E F E E Eb
Overjoyed, over loved, over you
Em7 - A D
Over you....

Sunday, 8 November 2009

Loooong Weekend

This has been a tiring weekend for me. For starters, I don't seem to have a weekend cause of my jam-packed sched. I usually have my day off on Sundays but had it switched to Saturday so I could attend the Vicariate Youth Day (yesterday Nov. 7, 2009). The youth day started with a mass, then had a sustainable development talk. After lunch, we had a very tiring Amazing Race. (My team came in 7th! Go brown!!!! and no, there were more than 7 teams! there were about 15). Attended the 6pm anticipated mass, had dinner, waited for bry to call (2 hours of waiting!) dozed off at about 22:30.

I woke up at around 8am this morning from a very action-packed dream (I was in combat and was constantly running. It was also emotional and suspense-ful) and baked some brownies. Took a bath at around 10:30 and arrived at the office at quarter to 12. Made an exam for my beloved students and danced my ass off til 19:30. Bry arrived at the office and we picked on each other til 21:00. Arrived home at about 22:00 then ate, Bry ate and ran and I'm now waiting for him to get home safely and call me :D

I'm sooooo dead tired! and I'm starting to feel the aches in my body. I have a full-load tom (yay for OT pay, oh no no break!) Hope I can manage to put on a smile tomorrow

Thursday, 5 November 2009

Back on track

Okay, so I know i haven't blogged for a while, blogging lost it's novelty when I was soooo busy in school and so absorbed with work. Now I am not. I am not schooling and I'm not absorbed with work, so now I want to blog again! YAY for me!

I still dont know what to type in this blogsite though. When i first made this blog, I wanted it to have impact, to be a blog that people would visit because of it's content. I dont want it to be just an outlet of my screaming mind but silent lips. It seems though I have no choice but to do that.

I'm planning to make a vlog, but it would be videos of me playing the guitar and singing. I know I know it's not a pretty sight to see and it would definitely anger the savage beast, but it would be my motivation to try singing and playing the guitar properly. You have the option of not watching anyway. right? :D I'm thinking of a catchy tag for this vlog. How about bathroom sessions? since I plan to record the videos inside the bathroom. (Nice acoustics!) Hmm....

My blog ends here. I'm hungry already and have used 21 mins of my precious 1 hour break!!!!

Thursday, 27 August 2009

My 21st

This is a rather late post. It's almost a month since my birthday, but I promised myself that I'll blog how Bry made my birthday really special.

It started off at my "salubong" party(Aug 4). He mingled with my/our friends and my office mates as well. There were also thrills during my birthday and a lot of talking. I really enjoyed my salubong and the HUG I got from him when the clock stuck 12! yay!

Bry and my/our friends went home at around 7pm, Aug 5. Bry still had work that day despite the non working Holiday imposed by the government. (Business is business as he say).

I stayed at home for the rest of the day, hid from the visitors which were mostly kids (mum's guests with their over-active kids. ok they're not over active, but I soo dont like kids!). Made a video presentation for fr. neil's birthday and watched the late president Aquino's funeral; cried at the replay of Kris Aquino's speech, blew out the candles of my yema cake, ate cake, ate merienda and finally by 6pm Bry arrived at home.

I was really touched, given the fact that he didn't sleep well here (sitting on a chair with his head rested on the table) and he worked the morning, he was still able to take me out for dinner.

We attended a 7:15 novena mass because It's my birthday (he's not Catholic btw) then headed out to eat.

We were supposed to have dinner at fancy resto, but then he saw the spa beside the front gate of the subidvision i live in. We decided to give it a try and had an hour's worth of massage and alone time! :)

It was already late when we headed out of the spa. 9 or 10 pm. Malls are closed and I'd rather not head out to the brickroad. It's noisy there and the route is dangerous so we settled for BK. We walked along Marcos Highway and talked again. We ate and talked at BK and finally went home.

I thought my birthday was over but the weekend of my birthweek, Bry and I went to Aranque and he bought me a Siamese kitten. I named her Aki after Aranque. So now we have our first baby! he's been really supportive of taking care of Aki :)

So that's my 21st bday experience! It was soooo fun because of my boyfriend! thanks babe!

Wednesday, 29 July 2009


Ok, this day isn't turning out well. I wont elaborate on the other things that occurred today. It's just that what happened just now really pissed me off.

One thing I hate about technology is spam. SPAM. Spam, is something that the user received unsolicited.

Spam mail is tolerable. It's easy to delete them. One look at the subject and you knot it's spam.

Spam text is slightly tolerable. If your cell phone has a preview or shows the first few lines of the text, you'd know if you want to read the message or not

SPAM CALLERS! now that I hate.

Yeah, I can't tolerate spam text that are in the form of somebody wanting to be your text mate. I mean, come on! I really hate receiving those type of texts. I rarely get those though, cause my friends dont give out my number (THANK GOD) and I dont leave/write my number in public places. In the occasions that I do get spam texts, I don't reply to them. yeah! HELL TO SPAM TEXTERS!

Yesterday, I received a spam text. I didn't reply to it, and I dont have load.
Today, 2 numbers called me up. One number even called me thrice. Thinking that it was something important, I had my phone loaded up and called those who called me, only to find out that they're spam callers.

They said that they got my number from TV chat.

To whoever placed my number there, I SOOOO HATE YOU.

though, if those two are just playing me around, and thought of TV chat as their cover up as to where they got my number then

YOUR FRIGGIN' STUPID! I rarely have that number loaded up and I DONT WATCH TV!

The number that those spammers are texting/calling is somewhat private. Only my boyfriend and a few select friends know it, but it can be found on my resume.

so for those who know this "private" number. I'll be changing it soon. I'll text you.


Tuesday, 14 July 2009

Teacher! Teacher!

I've been a teacher for 2 weeks and 2 days now. I can say that being a teacher is equally hard and satisfying. My experience is not as tough as most teachers though. For starters, I only have 9 students, sometimes 3. I don't need to bring test papers home just so I could return them on time. I don't need to make a lesson plan. HAHAHAHAHA *insert triumphant laugh here*

One of the joys of being a teacher is seeing that your students are able to understand what you are saying. It's like saying "Oh Yeah! I can teach! I can teach!" IT FEELS GOOD. DAMN GOOD :)

Now I know why smart students are teachers' favorites. These smart students give the teacher a sense of accomplishment. They get the lesson. They are able to do it by themselves! YESSSS!

It's kinda scary though, being a teacher. I mean, yeah I teach them everything I know and have learned but a person retains only a certain percentage of knowledge from school. So that fraction of knowledge that I learned and passed on, will be much much smaller in my students' brains. And that's just the lack of knowledge.. what if I teach them something wrong??? YIKES!

There are also a few things I realized that helped me understand my previous mentors

  1. Seldom will you find a teacher that checks the solution a student wrote. I gave a quiz that have very short solutions. After thoroughly checking 3 papers, I gave up. I just checked their final answer. Now I know why sometimes, solutions have no point at all
  2. Teachers want students to box or encircle their final answers because if the student's hand writing is like... I can't describe it... the teacher will have a hard time finding it; or worse just not give them any merit for the "scribbling" they have done on their paper
  3. Cheating ticks of instructors because it's like a subtle way of saying that the student's didn't understand a thing.
  4. Students that are not listening and doesn't perform well is torture!!!!
Walang teacher na yumaman

Thinking about it, teachers do give their damn best to their students. They are giving a portion of themselves to their students and the only worthwhile payment they get is when they see or hear that their students' are excelling or have excelled in school or work.

This goes out to all the teachers I had. My heartfelt thanks and love. I am molded into who I am because of the different portions of yourselves that you have given me

  1. Teacher Cherry
  2. Teacher Rose
  3. Mrs. Nieva
  4. Ms. Cruz
  5. Ms. Gallego
  6. Mr. Gonzales
  7. Mr. Eulalia
  8. Mr. Lim
  9. Mrs. Lim
  10. Mrs. Miranda
  11. Ms. Lesaca
  12. Ms. Tolentino
  13. Sir Yap
  14. Sir Sta. Maria
  15. Sir Nalayog
  16. Sis. Myra
  17. Sis. Rose
  18. Mrs. Roxas
  19. Mrs. Alunan
  20. Mrs. Pandela
  21. Ms. Balein
  22. Ms. Mau
  23. Ms. Bom
  24. Ms. Lastierre
  25. Ms. Pimpullo
  26. Ms. Mananquil
  27. Ms. Ignacio
  28. Mrs. Asuncion
  29. Mrs. 3rd yr. english teacher
  30. Ms. Bacus
  31. Mrs. Barozzo
  32. Mommy Mars
  33. Sir Rambongga
  34. Sir Morsiquillo
  35. Sir Odchi
  36. Sir Maranan
  37. Sir Panoy
  38. Sir Ulysses
  39. Ms. Abao
  40. Mrs. Abao
  41. Ma'am Javier
  42. Ma'am Mitch
  43. Ma'am Cosme
  44. Ma'am Cha
  45. Ma'am Narcisso
  46. Ma'am Kat
  47. Sir Ponay
  48. Sir Kesh
  49. Sir Dota
  50. Sir Jale
  51. Sir Bernabe
  52. Sir Mike
  53. Sir Cerezo
  54. Sir Siwa
  55. Sir Carreon
  56. Sir Verg
  57. Sir Cabero
  58. Sir Jess
  59. All those that I forgot to mention because of my faulty memory

Monday, 11 May 2009

Missing out

Have you ever felt that you missed out in a lot? Well, the feeling's mutual.

My parents are strict. I rarely go out of the house. It's not that they don't allow me to go out, It's just that they somehow managed to get it to my brain that they won't allow me to go out.

Childhood Memories
Being a kid is fun, you get to play all and read all day. My parent's let me play around a lot. I didn't find the need to go somewhere for playmates because my cousins and I live together (father side) in my grandmum's house, and every Sunday, we go to my aunt's place where I get to play with my other (mum side) cousins.

When we left my grandmum's home and lived in a huge rental house in Marikina, that's when my I felt my parent's strictness, they always wanted our playmates to play at home, and they rarely let us play outside. It wasn't much of a bother then too, cause our playmates were all too happy to play at our place. Lot's of hiding places and you can wriggle out of a chase by running endlessly inside the house then out.

High school fun

We lived in Antipolo, 2 years after staying in Marikina. I think I was in 5th or 6th grade. Anyway, I had this friend which was 3 - 5 lots away from our house, and my mum would rarely let me play there. I could go out of the house but not too far away. We had bikes but we can't bike past the oval, or we can't go somewhere where they can't find us immediately. Though these were not asked of us, these were implied, and being the obedient little girl they trained me to be, I followed.

So when I got into high school, I envied those who can go to the mall at their will, with their friends, eat out, play arcade, have their pictures taken in picture city or anyone doing anything with their friends, without their parents. When I want to go out, I have to ask for permission a few days ahead.

I missed out on a lot of "gimiks" and "mallings". My life was school and home. This is when I started discovering the Internet, chatting and emailing. I regained a part of my social life. I have a world where there are people like me, who are stuck or prefer to be stuck at home.

College No Show
When college came I was allowed to go to vigan in my freshman year. I wasn't able to attend any birthday party because they were always in a province "far" from our home. I was surprised when they allowed me to go to enchanted kingdom with my classmates, which was supposed to be followed by an overnight stay at a classmates house, which my mum cut short cause my HS gradpic fell from the wall (my brother knocked it off accidentally), and 2 paskuhan sessions in bulacan (3rd and 4th yr). But still, I was a no show for birthdays and all other events that my classmates planned. I'm a college No Show.

I hate it when I'm not with them, all the times they had fun and I have to stay at home, thinking about how to pass the time.. I hate it soooo much. I missed out on a lot of things and I feel like I lost my friends. Though, they are still (and I think forever :p) will be there during my tough times, how about the happy times? aren't those happy times friendship-strengthening as well?

I miss hanging out with my friends. I miss them so much. Eversince I had a boyfriend, I saw less of them, and I became more agitated that I can't be with them.

How I hate missing out... no I dont hate it, i loathe it! I loath, loath LOATHE missing out